all this while, i haven't been writing what i really think about. yup, i'm a coward in the sense that i fear being ostracised(yes! i finally spelt it correctly unconsciously) and i'm afraid that something unpleasant will slip out and present an ugly picture of myself. i forget that to err is human, and no human is flawless. ok... let's talk about something else. haha...
i don't dare to proclaim myself as a cynic because i keep thinking that all those cynics out there will say, "Yeah, right, so am I." there are a lot of cynics out there but there are those who are pretending and those who are the real deal. perhaps my level of cynicism isn't as "high" as yours or whatever, but at least i can proudly say that i am the most cynical girl in class. is that a thing to be proud of? to me, yes, quite.
whenever i make a cynical remark, others will look at me and say, "why are you so pessimistic?" i hate it when they confuse pessimism with cynicism. well, i want to tell those people now that being
cynical is not being
pessimistic.
cynical adj unwilling to believe that people have good, honest, or sincere reasons for doing something:
You are just so cynical, insert name! Don't you believe in anything?
pessimistic adj expecting that bad things will happen in the future or that a situation will have a bad result: [+
about]
He remains deeply pessimistic about the peace process.
after painstakingly typing out the meanings for you, you'd better get the two words right! and stop saying that i'm pessimistic because i'm not. i'm also just stating what i think and if you can't grasp the meaning of what i'm saying, i'm giving you 2 alternatives: tell me the truth or stop thinking that you know me or identify with me and shut up. understand?
the "you" refers to anyone who thinks i have nothing better to do but be a pessimist. i really don't care what you think anymore because i have the freedom of speech and i'm only broadcasting the truth. i wouldn't lie to you and don't need to. after all, i don't get paid for it.
