disgrace.
well, i never thought it would happen but it did. i received the lowest score i could have ever gotten in my entire life so far, for my composition. damn, and i will only ever say that for today.
20/40-what can I say? Comments given were “Quite disgraceful for a sec4 girl.”and “dull and banal, isn’t it very Pr.4ish?” urk. my confidence like glass shattered.
for a while, i was in a state of shock but i think I managed to get over it quick enough. tried to comfort myself, told myself that it was ok. the mark didn’t matter much, it was the comment. it was cruel and unjust. learnt that most people received comments like these too, well… …
i do accept the fact that my composition was not up to standard but i feel the remarks made were of no point. did the marker feel that we would benefit from such harsh words? i doubt she wanted to challenge us because she gave almost no one a single word of encouragement.
someone went to see her, to clarify, to find out, to seek for help. what did she get in the end? comments that ripped her heart, with tears pouring out from those wounds. argh… … don’t worry, it wasn’t me. i knew better.
all the marker could give were sentences like, “my primary one son can write better than you”,”what you and your friends wrote were so childish” and “you should write from a sophisticated person’s point of view, like those journalists in the straits times”. damn. the student who went to her for help certainly did not deserve those poisoned words, coming from a somewhat poisoned heart. i believe the marker meant what she said.
to add insult to injury, we were given her class’ compositions as reference. she claims that her bloody(uh, sorry =) sec3 class can write better than us. well, i have read through them and frankly, i’ve seen better. i‘m not saying that because i want to hide the fact that i did not write as well as them but that it is a fact. by the way, the marker is the English hod. like, whatever.
oh right, i remember something else which she told the student. “if you all were in rgs, you would have been failing all the way”. to that i reply, “at least we are still in rgs!”.
i deem this as a challenge and will strive to prove her wrong. she will eat her words. i sort of wish there was a way to humiliate her… …haha. nah, she isn’t worth the trouble. she and her comments are worth nothing. it’s ok to fail because failure is the mother of success and mistakes are meant to be made. I refuse to be defeated.
i will reign supreme and emerge victorious from this battle! wait for my good news.
now, i would like to thank wan tin, my classmate, audrey, nadine, amelyn and everyone. after telling wan tin my dismal score, she told me, “you did not put in effort”. she still believes that i can do it and it lifted my spirits. here’s what amelyn had to say, “hey don’t worry, it’s just stress time for everyone. people are being pushed for results, teachers too. just believe in yourself… u write good compositions. i read one of yours, remember? i know”.
Beams. (=