i spent over an hour looking for the stinky(yup, it is.) badge and to no avail. i couldn't not find it. i'm positive it fell off on my way home and that couldn't have been a very long way unless it fell off while i was in the bus. i was so determined to find it that i made up my mind to hop on every bus 100 and to sit on the same seat that i sat on yesterday. and yesterday was supposed to be a good day! i went home early because i was going to meet my aunts after school but i was still late in the end because i had to search for the badge.(ugh, i hate it!!!) i followed my tracks and walked really slowly to try and spot the golden thingy but it wasn't anywhere.
this morning after my paino lesson i went to look for it again. i even told my mom to look for it. no luck. until right now i am still cursing myself and that thing. argh, i am so mad with myself!(how many times must i say that...until i find it i guess). i remember once i lost it and i went up and down the route i took on the way home. it was only after about half an hour that i spotted it lying on the wet ground(it had been raining). i was so relived and vowed never to lose my badge again. looks like i failed to fulfil my vow. that is why i am trying so hard to find again! this time it is a different route.
i told myself this morning, rachael, i don't believe you can't find it. if you found it the other time, surely you can find it now. and hopefully God will reveal its whereabouts to you. i was disappointed with myself when i couldn't find it. i kept repeating (to myself of course) ,"Plese God, help me find my badge. I promise to never lose it again. Please, please, please!!!!!!" i was out of my wits.
so here i am, brooding over the loss. if any of you spot it, please return it to me? please??? by the way, i do have an extra badge. the point of having it is to ensure that i don't have to pay $2.50 but the thing is, what if i lose this one??? then i'll have to pay the cash! and i don't want to because i'll keep losing the ridiculously made badge and i'll have to keep paying up when it is so not my fault! -screams-
