i think i'm ready to tell you the truth. i shall not let my heart be a habour to these evil thoughts anymore.
i am jealous of you. i envy you. i can't stand it that i'm not as good. i am cold towards you because i can't bring myself to talk to you. perhaps you'll never get an audible word from me anymore; perhaps i can only type to you. that's because i hurt too much. it's too painful for me.
vehmently i cry, "Life is so unfair!". what can i do? i can and i will do many things. because i've decided to tell you the truth. i feel better and i will have to ignore everything my heart tells me. i'm just going to listen to my brain now. what do you think?
